it kind of took me by suprise but not really. i find myself little by little dropping friends left and right. i sat back and thought like ok is it me? am i the one causing all my friends to act phoney and do shady stuff? for a while i was blaiming myself for my friends being fickle and taking advantage of me but then i finally came to conclusion that people dont appreciate you for who you are and people wiill take advanatge of you only if you allow them to. i m a people person and if i ever see any of my friend sor somebody i care about i do my best to help them out reguardless of the situation i want to see my friends do well and doing positive things but you cant change a person and a person has to want certain things for themselves in order for things to change. i just wish a friendship didint have to end on such rocky and bad terms and then its like i know i didi everything i did for that person ; i was more the nice and caring why turn you back on somebody who cared for you and helped you when nobody else would and was there for you when nobody else was for those other people who only are interested in you for the moment? i dont get it; not to toot my own horn but if you loose me as a friend then yor loosing out on alot because ima darn good friend and i go above and beyond for anybody i care about